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CINTA SENDIRI

 

“Kau ungkapkan kepadaku…

Kan ada saatnya nanti engkau milikku satu.

Ku menunggu dalam bimbang…

Adakah sungguhnya aku kasih yang kau inginkan?

 

Biar aku yang pergi bila tak juga pasti.

Adakah selama ini aku cinta sendiri…

Biar aku menepi bukan lelah menanti.

Namun apalah artinya cinta pada bayangan.

 

Pedih aku rasakan kenyataannya Cinta tak harus memiliki…”

 

Di atas adalah cuplikan teks lagu Kahitna.

Ga tau kenapa sedihh aja kalau ngedengernya.. (maav bukan ga’ tau kenapa…tapi ga mungkin alasan – seddihhnya diumbar dipublik hehe…)

 

Gw suka bgt lagu tsb dari semenjak SMA…maksudhnya dari semenjak lagu tsb dipublishkan (kyk majalah ajaa..)…

Tapi, herannya gw baru ngedpt lagu ini 1minggu yang lalu..

SENANGNYA!!!

 

Kalo ga salah (ya berarti benarr) lagu ini muncul saat gw kelas 3 SMA…pas gw lagi persiapan utk SPMB. Waktu itu gw nge-kost di DEPOK.

Ternyata ada teman (teman?? Hehe) gw juga yg suka dgn lagu ini. (CiQUita-red-the.name.of.ma’.friend)

 

Yaah,,qta ngerasa aja makna lagu ini dalemmm (sedalam2nya!) BGT. Sedih. Gila ni lagu klo gw boleh gw deskripsikan dgn 2 kata “DAMN BGT”…hehe

 

Yah klo kmu2 ga ngerasa makna lagu ini dalam bgt… coba dehh baca lagi lirik lagu di atas. Atau kalo ga, dengerin sendiri aja lagunya. (Nyuruh,,hehe)

 

Kembali ke gue n ciquita…

Yah mungkin lagu ini ‘mengena’ karena pernah ada pengalaman tersendiri buat qta masing2.

CiQ,, klo loe baca blog gue ini,, gue jg sklian mo tny adakah pngalaman sedih itu yg sesuai dgn lagu Kahitna CINTA SENDIRI?

Hehe

 

Kalo boleh gw ‘describe’ kisah di balik lagu CINTA SENDIRI ini..ialah..eng i eng,,,

 

Ni lagu seperti mengisahkan (sang penulis yang)

kegundahan dan bahkan hampir2 ‘give up’ dalam menunggu dan mencintai seseorang yang udah begituu laaamaa bgt ada di hatinya.

 

Ibaratkan orang tersebut seringkali seakan – akan memberikan harapan kepada kita.

Namun pada faktanya,, org tersebut tidak kunjung datang.

Bahkan mungkin telah bersama orang lain.

 

Lagu ini benar2 mengisahkan keraguan akan

“Sebenarnya ada gak seehh gue di hatii lo? Loe tuu ngasi2 gw harapan. Loe tuuuhh nge-BUAT gue nunggu sekian laaammaa…tapi kenapa loe ga ngerti2??”

 

dan akhirnya karena udah terlalu lama menunguu,,

dikisahkan ‘si penunggu’ ini akhirnya menyerah. Memutuskan untuk pergi dan tidak menanti hal yang tidak pasti. Menyerah dalam mencintai.

 

Yahh,, walo begitu,, tetep aja menyakitkan menunggu dan mengasihi seseorg dalam kurun waktu yang amat lama… jatuh bangun (kyk lagu dangdutt yee,,he) dalam kebimbangan..

Yang ternyata di akhirnya,, hanya HAMPA. KOSONG. SENDIRI.

 

Damn BGT!

 

Well,, sekedar ini hanya curahan singkat akan kisah di balik lagu KAHITNA.

Sebenarnya masseehh byk lagu2 Kahitna yg gue suka. Nti dehh gw explore lebih banyak lagiii. Haha.

 

Pesan gw for the readers…

 

Come on… Be conscious of people’s around you.

Maybe there’s somebody who has waited and has loved you for a long time.

Peka. Jangan buat org lain menunggu… klo loe mank ga suka menunggu.

Kasi kepastian… Ya atau Tidak. (Gampang kan?)

Hehe…

 

Actually,, Love is not always beautiful. Sometimes it also leads to the everlasting pain.

A Letter to readers.

 

Why are there many things I don’t understand here my Lord?

Why are there always things I cannot get in life?

Why are people supposed to have ‘want’ and ‘love’ to feel the day?

And why am I the one who get nothing but empty?

 

‘To let everything go away from your life’ has a very big deep definition.

Well can YOU describe it to me?

How can be a person called ‘has let everything go away from his life’?

What are the various ways ‘to let everything go away’?

And THE IMPORTANT THING is

“Why should somebody let everything go away from life?”

 

Since it’s a kind of situation I’m in.

 

Huh! In fact everyone is ‘A ONE’ and ALONE.

Am I right?

Haha… you don’t feel it right?

Everyone is born as a one self.

We experience the sadness and happiness by our own selves.

Truly, nobody ever feel the same ways as we do.

Though sometimes there are people who seem really understand what inside our heart,,,

well,, no one ever gets into the point as we are in.

Really? Do u trust me?

 

 

Discover it by yourself.

well..
baru - baru ini gw disadarkan bagaimana gw 'MEMANG' ternyata harus mencintai bangsa gw..
INDONESIA,,
bagaimana gw harus bersyukur lahir di negeri ni...
bgaimana gw harus menghayati kehidupan gw kedepan selayaknya seorng warga yg baik..

sebelumnya,,,gw akui klo gw memang agak kurang perduli pada bangsa ini..
mau ada bahaya,,,bencana,,,pergantian kabinet pemerintahan,,atopun kenaikan BBM..

I don't care...I go on with my own life..

tapi disuatu moment..TUHAN...gw yakin bgt DIA yg mengingatkan gw,,

bahwa BUKANLAH SUATU KEBETUALAN gw terlahirr di negeri Ini..

Tuhan pasti punya rencana khusus kenapa dia pilih Indonesia sbg tempat gw mengawali kehidupan hingga detik ini..

kalo gakk,,,kenapa juga Tuhan ga pilih Zimbabwe,,ato Kenya,,ato Jepang,,sebagai tempat gw lahir,,

Pertanyaan itu yg sedang gw selami,,sedang gw gumulkan baik2,,

Gw masih harus membekali diri gw dgn byk hal utk meneruskan bangsa ini,,

yaaahhh,,bukan berarti gw obsesi bgt utk jd pemimpin negara in,,jadi menterii,,pemimpin partai ato apalah,,,

hehe,,

mulai dari yg kecil2 aja doeloe,,

misal jgn buang sampah sembarangan,,jgn boker n pipis sembarangan,,
hehe

(ga nyambung,,,disambung2in)

at least,,gw rajin belajar di msa perkuliahan ini...rajin bergumul utk rencana Tuhan buat gw dan Indonesia,,

gw harap..teman2 smua,, bisa menghayatinya pula,,
ayo jgn sia2kan masa mudamu...!

God bless us and our country

fine!...i feel bored enough..

tired enough..

2 see everything right on my eyes,,

i know exactly...everything hidden from me,,

these few days has been very busy days 4 me,,4 everyone of course,,

i juz need a moment please,,

juz a while 2 recover..

i'm ALMOST GONE..from my way out..

juz because of invisible reasons

Let me BE aLONe..

Sometimes,, ALONE is a BETTER WAY 4 me

I never want to play the games
that people play
I never want to hear the things
they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore
than I can see
I only want you to believe

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

I wanna give you
all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me
how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy
I never wanted to live a lie

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

Boy I followed my heart
Followed the truth
And right from the start
it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty

The sun can't remember how to shine
And the colors all have faded
into shades of gray 
There's no life in this
hollow heart of mine 
Ever since you went away

Close your eyes and
feel me hold you 
Can you lead me through
this ordinary world
Let the sky cry,
restless rain to wash away the miles 
Between us,
'cause without you
it's just an ordinary world

If time could find 
a way to turn around 
I would walk along the stars,
till I was back at your door
Every word,
every word is spoken
but without a sound 
And I found out
what my heart is for

Close your eyes and
feel me hold you 
Can you lead me through
 this ordinary world
Let the sky cry, 
restless rain to wash 
away the miles Between us, 
'cause without you it's just an ordinary world

Hold your breath, here I come
Time to roll on mine 
Take back, to your arms 
Till we melt 
Underneath the blinding sun

Can't remember how to shine
You're the life in 
this hollow heart of mine

Close your eyes and
 feel me hold you 
Can you lead me 
through this ordinary world
Let the sky cry,
 restless rain to wash 
away the miles between us
'Till love can come redeem us 
'cause without you 
It's just an ordinary world




this one is my favorite menaingful
song from Katharine Mcphee..

guess why is it..4 me?

diz iz an unforgettable song 4 me..

guess why..?



One more day, one last drink
Before I leave it all behind
And play the role that's meant for us
That said we'd say goodbye

One more night (one more night) by your side (by your side)
Where our dreams collide
And all we have is everything
And there's no pain there's no hurt
There's no wrong it's all right

If I promise to believe will you believe
That there's nowhere that we'd rather be
Nowhere describes where we are
I’ve no choice, I love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye

And all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
And nothing in this world’s gonna change, change

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life
The hardest day of my life

I still breathe (I still breathe), I still eat (I still eat)
And the sun it shines the same as it did yesterday
But there's no warmth, no light
I feel empty inside

But I never will regret a single day
I know it isn't going to go away
What I'm feeling (I'm feeling) for you
I will always love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye (love you wave goodbye)

And all, and all I ever wanted was to stay (all I ever wanted was to stay)
Nothing (nothing) in this world's gonna change...

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never (never) wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
I never knew I'd ever feel this way
I feel for you...

Never wanna wake up (I feel for you, I feel for you) from this night
Never (never, never) wanna leave this moment
Wainting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget (never gonna forget) every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life...
Never wanna wake up from this night...

absolutely..

i am passing the hardest dayy of my life,,

the most unforgettable moment that really pressed me to grow on faster..

i really have to 4get everything,, everyone,,

i need 2 be alone 4 a while,,

am i sure?

really thank God 4 the answer which had been waited

among these 4 years..

Good Bye my OnLy One

God Knows froM the beginning ,,

till the EnD

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